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Oh, Now

All I said was, "Lead the way!"
and she forgave my old allegiance.
Call it love or Novocain,
you cannot win at life by being you.

Evening comes like bleeding ink
the palest pink gives in to bruising.
Genius dying drink by drink
I'd like to think it's not my doing.

Oh, now
the old illusions fade out
and all I do is wait now
for the news to come back in.

Lay me down, lay me down, out there
where the meadow dies in the autumn air.
And save the crutch, save the crown for when
I rise up from my sleep.

And you're reaching out, and you say out loud:
"I'm lost! Please come find me!"
And I know it's brave, to know what you need,
but when no one comes it's weak.

Oh, now
the rifle's firing,
deer run for their brief lives
the fear comes
but it's only seasonally.

And, oh, now
the curtain's lifted,
bring out your dumb and your gifted
let's see how
they'll choose whom to believe

Oh, I see...


from The Old Illusions, released January 22, 2016
Nathaniel Bellows: Guitar, Vocal
Aaron Roche: Electronics, Fluegel horn, guitars, trombone



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