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The Reason

And the common key was C
the cloud carved out of me
And the alarm rang through the street
the sound drowned out the free

Did somebody somewhere just use my name?
In the way one would say: “I now know me!”
To wonder would only renew this pain:
It’s me on the end of the phone
the reason may never be known

Here’s a lie: I’ll see you soon
Here, I’ll try to spend the night the whole way through
But if life is given by something still hidden then who
wants to die with the “why” unassumed?

Could somebody somewhere just soothe my brain?
The thundering thoughts and the silence
Could somebody love me with all this shame?
The mirror will sever the soul
the reason may never be known

Here it is, the image, from the start to the finish
the tolling bell, the cobra, the rolling gull
no one knows this so Lord, don’t tell.
It begins with the symbol, the straw on the spindle
the golden cell, “One moment,” I told myself,
“It was broken before I fell…”

Did somebody somewhere presume the end?
All in a moment of longing?
It’s just what you choose when you lose, my friend.
Say: All is calm
Say: Now, I’ll go
Take solace from
The reason we never will know


from The Old Illusions, released January 22, 2016
Nathaniel Bellows: Guitar, Vocals
Julie Lee: Vocals
Dan Burns: Vocals
Aaron Roche: Guitars, piano



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